Owl Connection.

Little Dark Spaces with Light

Fear.Thoughts.Action.

"Thinking will not overcome fear, but action will. "

As I get older I find I’m getting more scared.I used to be pretty fearless within my own capacity but now I don’t take the chances. Well apart from in relationships and still get royally fucked over! I envy the lives of those who have a home especially pretty homes and settled lives.And they in turn envy me.The grass is greener on the other side sort of thing.I also feel I am becoming more complacent as I get older. Always thinking and feeling that things will fall into place but they won’t unless I create the circumstances for them to. I have always believed in the power of intention.But there are way too many intentions/ideas in my head.Most of these options sometimes just remain as ideas and some of them are not even valid. But I need to be able to put ideas into action  to feel unstuck. To be able to move forward  I must get out of this vicious cycle of just thinking and fear.

Love,
Sana

Full Moon Love.

Roots.

The Cheese Connection
 I spent two and half months in Pondicherry, Tamil Nadu learning the intricacies of making cheese.  Cheese is not only about loads of milk, it is a science and an art at the same time. There are so many details about the temperature, the enzyme, the culture, the yoghurt that needs to be added.
I was so lucky to have volunteered at a tiny farm run by a local who was so open to sharing the recipes and the process of how it is all done.

My day normally started out with cleaning out the cold room then went on to helping with preparing the cheese for the day and ending with packing and labeling orders for the day. I loved that the work was very detailed in terms if things are even a bit out of proportion then the cheese can go very wrong.  I dabbled in making cheddar, parmesan, ricotta, mozarella and some other recipes exclusive to the farm.

I am so grateful for this experience which helped me appreciate the process and love that goes into the food that we gobble up. I never thought that cheese making was such a beautiful art of exact proportions and measurements.

Thank you Iyenar and Valli Aka.

Ruin is  the road to transformation.

Orange Moon
October 19, 2013
United Arab Emirates

Note To Self

Put love out into the universe and be 100% authentic. Nearly all the pain or dissatisfaction in your life is the result of being inauthentic or assigning meaning to things. And don’t worry if you “screw up” and are unloving or if someone else “screws up” and is unloving, it doesn’t mean anything. Just resolve it by being honest and authentic and don’t waste your time trying to attribute meaning to it.’

That’s all it’s ever been and all it ever will be…

The only way the opinions or opposition of others could bring you down is if you’re basing your identity or worth on their opinion. And if you’re finding your identity or worth in others, you’re in for a lifetime of misery and instability.

If you’re authentic and honest with someone, and coming from a place of love and it’s not reciprocated, then that has nothing to do with you. It doesn’t mean anything for someone not to return your love and authenticity, it just is.Trying to figure out why they’re doing what they’re doing or why they did what they did is pointless. It means nothing about who you are or who they are, and attempting to attribute meaning to such things is the source of nearly all our pain.

"it means I’m unlovable"
"It means I’m a bad person / friend / roommate"
"It means I’m a bad son/mother/father/sibling/etc"
"It means there’s something wrong with me"
"It means I’m a victim"
"It means I’ll never have a normal life"
"It means I’ll never realize my dreams"
"It means things will never change"
"It means I’m wrong"

These are the types of things we attribute as meaning, but there is simply NOTHING in this universe that can make you anything but who you authentically are, the purest you, the most perfect you, the unhindered, unfettered YOU.Anything that tempts you to believe you are anything but FREE and in total control of your life is 100% Bullshit, and what’s more, it’s Bullshit created inside your mind, and you’re not your mind, which means you’re in the position to call the Bullshit what it is and shovel it out, or at least pay it no attention.

If you’re longing for something that isn’t there, longing for things to be different, then that’s your own self imposed prison. Nobody can make you”feel” inadequate, alone, unwanted, bad, etc you can only choose to impose such things on yourself.

"But I can’t help feeling _____ " you might say. And that is true,you can’t always control the feelings that pop up in your body, but you aren’t your body, and you aren’t your feelings. And the pain you feel, the discomfort you feel is not from feelings, it’s from your "interpretation" of what the feelings mean. And it’s also from resisting the feelings, trying to change them, trying to hide them. Two people can experience the same emotion,and to one person it’s unpleasant, to the other it’s pleasant, it’s all about the lens you view it through.

Stop trying to change things, it doesn’t work. What you resist persists. If I lean against you and you resist me, and I keep leaning harder, and you keep resisting harder, you’ll be holding me up with all your strength, becoming more and more fatigued, and in the end, we will likely both tumble.
But, if instead of resisting me, you give in, or move slightly out of the way,I’ll fall and you’ll be left standing, effort free.

That’s what “what you resist persists” means. It means if you keep trying to change things, you’ll never be happy, and you’ll constantly be exhausted. But if you accept things for how they are and realize it means nothing, then you can begin to invent possibilities and create the life of your dreams within that newly found blank slate in your life that was once occupied by imaginary frameworks, constraints, and struggles.

Start living the life of your dreams now, stop worrying what others”might” be thinking and what it “might” mean. You are who you are, no matter what, so just be yourself and be free.

I love You.

- SRI SRI

You develop an instant global consciousness, a people orientation, an intense dissatisfaction with the state of the world, and a compulsion to do something about it. From out there on the moon, international politics look so petty. You want to grab a politician by the scruff of the neck and drag him a quarter of a million miles out and say, ‘Look at that, you son of a bitch.
Edgar Mitchell, Apollo 14 Astronaut

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Innocence

Kutch, Gujrat India 2011
Going back in time to showcase old favorites

What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find.
Herman Hesse

One of the reasons why I love photography is because it allows you to go back in time. It allows you to go back to a moment and sit with it. To be able to reconnect with an experience  and remember the story behind that moment, …where I was, who I was with, what I felt …this captured moment is like being in the middle of a bigger story with so many little stories tied to it

I look at this photo I took long ago at pretty much what was the start of my nomadic journey and I am overwhelmed by the rush of emotions that comes not only from the pureness of these little girls but also the time that has passed and what has happened since. I wonder how the two girls are……….


http://nomadbuzz.tumblr.com/post/1001496434/wink-wink-laos
Northern Laos , 2010

Upside Down
Al Fujairah- United Arab Emirates